Yea, Love can suck. My thinking is that if you don't love, you don't hurt. I guess that is as you read my writtings about death so much, my husband, grandma and Mom all 3 died in a 2 week period. I know he did not hurt me on purpose, hell, he didn't want to die. But, none the less, it hurt like hell. You truly pour your heart on paper. I like that.
Clap! Clap! Clap! I read your heart here! Deep, beautiful, a tear jerker but none the less, your heart. I absolutly love this. Not because of the pain which causes these words to be written but from the beauty of reading your soul, though it is in pain.
You from what I believe have written exactly how your heart feels and what life has been like and going to be without your mother. This reader felt your loss through your words yet also saw the beauty in what you wrote.