Hi Anthony. This is a beautiful poem. I read in the Bible that God, speaking in the first person, finds pleasure in those who question him, ponder him, test him, try him, prove him. He tells us to search him out. So dont listen to narrow minded people. Ponder away. I enjoyed this one very much.
Yeah, what we think might sometimes drive the pain away, it has a tendency to turn around and swallow us whole. Bad news all around. I think everyone in this day and age, has had those days. God Bless, catie :)