I think this one is my favorite. It departs from the tortured soul motif to the hopeful. It's beautiful how you've kept the theme throughout of God as creator of opportunities and options rather than orchestrator of events. This is one poem in particular where the rhyme scheme and meter you tend to favor works especially well. Concice and packed with meaning- these are the most difficult poems to write. Love it!
This is very Poe-like- I suppose there are worse things to be tortured by than incessant words and ideas. Your imagery is very clear and I can almost imagine what you are feeling. The tile is clever as well, like an oxymoron. Well done!