I appreciate you taking the time to share this story. I froze as your words attached to my inner emotions that hide quietly in my spirit. I feel a revelation of truth coming from your experience. I've been missing something and needed to read this message. I thank God for allowing me the opportunity to read this. If only you could see the sincerity in my eyes.
I've been unable to committ myself to a real relationship in the past five years because I'm lost. I've met an amazing man and would not allow him to experience my unconditional love. We remained best friends, but he couldnt accept not being more than just friends. Eventually, we had to go or separate ways and love from afar. In all honesty, I'm afraid that no one except God can understand my love for life, people, nature, etc. etc.
I often pray that God will open my eyes and allow me to accept love. I can't tell you how many people I've met who have said that I'm an Angel to them over the years. When I pray, God speaks to me and tells me his purpose in my life. I hear confirmation on a regular basis from people. I'm often told that I'm beautiful on the outside and it bothers me. I want people to love me for my inner beauty not my shell. For this reason, I hide from loving a man. At the same time, I feel like I'm starving because I feed from nourishing others with words, smiles and affection. I believe all of us have an inner child that needs encouragement.
As I type this comment so many emotions are in my head. I feel relieved and alive again. I thank God for blessing me to come across your page. I have clarity and the joy in my heart is overwhelming :)
I LOVE YOU! Even though we never met, I love you for who you are and the person you have become.